Being able to express what you go through may
at times seem a very herculean task especially when you feel mere words how
much ever creatively and expressively deployed may actually not do justice to
your inner feelings. It gets even tougher when you are trying to describe an
event which took place in the past(in my case about an hour back!) and all you
are left with is just memories of that event. You want to go over the process
to magnifying that thought such that it converts to an emotion and takes over
you completely. For the forthcoming few minutes I attempt to fake my present
moment as I key in my words(with an occasional sneeze!) by imagining
myself walking along what seems to be a heavily jammed Marathahalli outer ring
road. I get myself heavily drenched and all I see is a void hopeless look in
the eyes of the bystanders waiting for their modes of conveyance(Divine
intervention required badly!). Ive got about 4kms to cover amidst a vehicle
population crisis!. My only sigh of relief is a petty shop where I head to,
take my first few puffs and now relaxedly watch a side(perhaps the only one) of
insanely fast urban India. I make conversation with the petty shop owner who
answers my questions with a sense of indifference. Meanwhile my first cigarette
gives away to the incessant rain and I am quick to get on with my second one!.
Haha I have all the time in the world(atleast thats how I gotta think, for I
enjoy my present!). Now I move on from there firmly determined. I encounter
more vehicle traffic, more slippery sand and more rain!. I have an audio
playing in my head; that of the climax scene from "The Shawshank
Redemption" which goes "hope is
a good thing. maybe the best of good things. and no good thing ever dies". Well folks as I make slow paces towards Marathahalli Bridge, there is
nothing else I think of and I must admit the severity of the emotion I was holding
onto inorder to key in this blog has died down. I did not require the audio
tape once I reached Marathahalli bridge because that bit felt like something
familiar; Like my normal routine every day. Well I am home. I hope to go to
office strong and continue about engaging in my daily business(Divine
Intervention required again badly!) or I may need to play my audio tape again!.
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