Investing Time!

Its been a while ! .... A long while .... Probably this time, it is to take my mind off the vicissitudes I have been dragged in due to work and a strong sense of loathsomeness I tend to develop towards my self and my world at times ... I admit I do get mood swings ... Strong indeed that they hit me very hard that it wrecks my mental framework transforming me to a very irritable cynic. I at once give up on the real self that I long to be. I give up on the force of life. Its a lot of persisting questions that haunt me. I wish to unlearn the bad.  

I value time regardless of whether it is mine or anybody else's. But at the same time I do succumb to the fears imposed by its unrelenting forward march that I prefer inaction/inactivity.  I have attained age to discharge responsibilities and at  the  same time "avoid" venturing into risks that "may seem demeaning enough". I owe a lot of things to a lot of people. But again this time, I ve worked  hard enough and have garnered enough experience to validate that these troubles are part and parcel of life. THE REVELATION OF THE  GITA!. It is a beautiful experience contemplating on the ideas. I can feel the message sinking in. I do not know where it is taking me, but I prefer to chug along. Let divine thoughts come from everywhere. Let me be the medium between cause and consequence, so that I don't claim either of these. This is one thing which I wish to share with the readers. I do not wish to expound on the individual shlokas, but I shall give it a good human effort to write on how we can identify ourselves with the relevance of  the message this beautiful piece of literature(this is a severe understatement!) conveys!.